he Blue Butterfly: A Quiet Guilt”

 
 
About 25 years ago, we lived in a small house with a front yard. In the yard stood a guava tree, a Madhu Malati vine, and pots filled with roses. Every morning and evening, sparrows chirped. The children loved feeding them and chasing butterflies.
 
But humans are selfish, restless, and never satisfied. I’m no exception. As our children grew, space felt tight. Sunlight barely entered the house because neighbours had covered their verandas. I kept thinking—if we build a bigger room in front, the house will look better and we’ll have a nice sitting area.
 
Eventually, whether due to my wife’s constant remarks or my own hidden desire, I decided to build that room. Naturally, the guava tree and Madhu Malati vine had to be cut down. In a few months, the new sitting room was ready. We moved the Tulsi plant and flower pots to the terrace. We even kept a water bowl for the sparrows. But they were gone. Without the vine, they had no place to nest. A few still came to the terrace for food and water.
 
About a year later, one evening after work, my children shouted, “Dad! Dad! There’s something like a bug on the wall!” I looked closely; it was a cocoon, with a faint blue colour inside. “It’s a butterfly cocoon,” I said. “Soon, a butterfly will come out.”
 
Maybe the butterfly’s mother had come out of habit to lay eggs. With no tree or vine, she must have laid them on a flower pot. The caterpillar crawled into the room, searching for a safe place to form its cocoon.
 
A few days later, I came home to find my kids dancing with joy. “Look, Dad! The butterfly!” A beautiful blue butterfly was flying around the room. The children were thrilled. They had turned off all the fans so it wouldn’t get hurt.
 
That night, they gently guided the butterfly out of the room, shut the doors, turned on the cooler, and went to sleep.
 
Next morning, I washed my face in the back veranda and entered the sitting room. In one corner, the butterfly lay dead. Maybe it had entered again and got caught in the fan. I stared at it for a while, feeling guilty.
 
What was the butterfly’s fault? Its mother didn’t know that a selfish man had cut down the trees. She came, didn’t find the vine, and laid eggs on a pot. The butterfly was born in a closed room instead of open nature. If it had survived, it might have returned to lay eggs here again. But now, that cycle was broken.
 
I picked it up with a heavy heart and threw it outside. Then I scrubbed my hands at the washbasin. While washing, I remembered Lady Macbeth—can we ever wash away our guilt?
 
It wasn’t just one butterfly. I had destroyed generations of butterflies for my own comfort. Since then, I’ve never seen a blue butterfly near our home.
 
Even today, whenever I see a butterfly, I remember that one. And one question keeps haunting me: While building that room, why didn’t I think even once about the lives that lived on those trees and vines? If I had, maybe that blue butterfly would still be alive.